i don't know y~~ i have no mood to go for economics class... it is such a boring subject..cause i've been studying the same subject n same thing for 2 semesters.. this is the 3rd semester..i loose the passion to study that i suppose to have.. i loose the motivation to remind myself my aim n goal.. i cant see my future... really mad with myself... i hate long holidays!! from now on...study mode activated!! dad, i'm sorry i know u gone really mad...n disappointed... sorry for the warning letter that u received in every semester.. i owes promise u bt never work hard on it... sorry daddy... i cried this afternoon..i know dad u work so hard to raise me.. yet this is wad u get in repay.. if i were u...i'll kill my daughter.. sorry daddy.. i'm blaming myself..for not hardworking enuf...for the laziness... for everything!! GOD.. u've gone far away from me.. it's my fault for not going to church for decade n only look for u when i was in trouble... i hope u'll guide me..bless me in everything i do..bless my family n friends... wish them healthy and take care of them.. nothing happened recently... just the devil is controlling me..the lazy devil... the sleeping devil.. all the bad devils...shoo shoo shoo!!!!~~~ i dont want to be like this.. i dont want to think of anything now.. i just want to make sure i catchup with all the assignments...testsss...quiz.....n finals the most important... short sem with long holiday..seems like it's not tat good as i expected.. sigh~~~ sorry daddy~~ the unlimited forgiveness n love u sacrificed... i'll return it back to u in future as in 100 times... nobody is perfect...so do i.. i'm sure all the human beings will be facing the same situation.. most important is do not give up.. nothing is easy n nothing is impossible..confront n overcome it then u're a successful person~ be proud of me some day dad.. thanks mum for not scolding n mumble me.. u know me n understand me very well.. although u like to mumble me sometimes..bt i know u're just showing ur concern n love.. 4 more weeks..then i'll be having my final exam.. dear kate...thanks for showing ur concern to me all the time.. although we din see each other everyday or every week.. bt really thanks for ur support n stand by me... catch up with u some days...xoxo =)
Dearest mummy and me
ps: 1st of october 2009.. gonna be a brand new day for me n everything gonna turns good...^^ winks.. be optimistic no matter what condition u faced... accept it and overcome it^^
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