Feel so down.......

Hello Mr.Blog...today is my first time to create my own blog here. Suddenly i have this idea is because of during the presentation today, one of my classmate talk about blogging and benefits of that. I really do believe in what he say about the benefits of blogging. Now, i have way to release my stress or even to share my happiness and sadness with all the fellow... Oh ya, talk about this morning, usually our monday class start from 10am until 5pm. But for this week class 10am to 12pm maths class has been cancelled due to the reason of the lecturer took leave. While i'was sleeping, Yen Yang called me and asked me which class supposed to go..So funny..i told him that the class was cancelled..then he went back home and next was sang han's turn to call me...omg...this happen cause of they never concentrate...haha...then i wake up at 10.30am to take shower..arrgh...today is my presentation day ...so damn nervous cause first time i do public speaking...but luckily i have done it...^^ At night, i take dinner with my bf at mamak shop.. We eat a lot of things like 2 nasi lemak, 1 ayam tandoori, 1 roti, 1 ice lemon tea n 1 watermelon juice..Everyone is like focusing on our table...so funny two ppl eat this much...But after come back we fight again...because i saw his phone..recently he keep sms with a girl...even this morning after he woke up the first thing he do is to sms the girl?i'm wondering how the girl look like?why he care so much about her??why he want to let her know everything he do?obviously he is showing interest at the girl...what the fuck!!what am i to him??just a sleeping partner?i really dunno...we used to break up many times..i'm trying my best to change the attitude that he doesn't like...i really do....but i'm totally heart broken after see his phone...i rather don't touch it at all....guess what he explain to me?he told me they r just friends....but from what i can see in fact is more than a friend will do...Will you text your girlfriend or friend first once u wake up???i'm not a stupid girl....i cry after i see it...dunno y i feel so pain in my heart...like something stab into my heart...but honestly u dont worth my tears anymore!!~~and what i wanna tell u is I AM NOT BACKSTABBER...i'm just telling the truth....God, please decide for me..... tell me what to do..what should i do...it's 2.52am now...i should sleep cause i'm having early class later on...have to wake up at 8am...Good night Mr.Blog..