What is LOVE??

Love...for me it is like an investment...if you invest more,you'll get higher risks...yet higher repay...but if u invest lesser,u'll get lesser payback..it is so contray...when you really in love with someone else..u really wish u would sacrifice more...n do more for d person...but on the other hand..u will think that if u love the person deeper,will u get hurted deeper at the end??this is what bear in my mind...i love J so much..everyday i try to do the best to make him satisfy and make him happy...i think i tolerate so much with him...but the way J talk to me is always like...erm...how should i describe?hmm..."fierce"...always with anger tone...sigh...that's y i always hide and cry myself....cause J hates ppl cry the most...actually i know he loves me so much too...but maybe he doesn't want to express it out or wadever i dunno...for now...i'm feeling some kind of sour in my heart...processing my tears...i told myself that no one worth my tears anymore..but sorry i couldn't control it...if this continue to happen...i really dont know how long can still both of us stand of each other....how wish i could be like other sweet couples...really so envy them although J always say this is so not realistic thingy...^^but girls r always not realistic...we always live in our own dreamland....but i'm not so into it so it's ok...oh yeah...few days ago i even deleted my friendster account...because of"a guy sent me a smiley face then he got angry and thought that i had affairs with the guy"..isn't it funny??LOL...if this happened because u love me too much and dun wan to loose me...then i'll not regret for i've done...if this happened because of you're selfish...it will only makes me to hate u more day by day...anyway thanks for ur mcdonald today^^MR.J..haha...actually this shouldn't be the things i need to concern for now...i should pay more attention on my study because this is the major one...anway hope GOD wil bless me and ppl who i love and who love me....^^Good night Mr Blog...^^